The Shape of Air
Can one really start over?
Lost in the same place year after year.
One step forward and two steps back. Taking baby steps to get back to where you once were, requires patience. Getting back into the game of life requires movement.
Has life changed? Only the person viewing it. Memories require things in life to be familiar. As the air around you changes, so do the memories. Time... Past Present and Future has its' own air.
Starting over, means you finished a goal. Reached and won. Or perhaps you have just gained some knowledge. In either case, I call it a win. We have moved through the experience, gained knowledge from it, and moved on. Or, perhaps, we've just stopped moving?
Purpose requires movement. Goals require movement. Life requires movement. Forward movement through the air surrounding us. To stagnate is to lose balance. Becoming dull. The stench starts to grow. Negative thought fester in the mind. Air must move. Make the body move before it ceases to develop new air around it. The shape of air starts to change when it moves. Sometimes, if you move carefully down a path, the air around you will move too. Ceasing stagnation. The mind will open up and reveal what the next step may be. Life requires movement. Consistent movement (whether forward or backward), stops the stagnation. Over time we all wish to move forward. New memories, new time, new air.
These meandering thoughts come from the struggle to get back into my running habit, after a year off, with a broken ankle. Add February blues to this mess and you get an unmotivated lump of organic matter that focuses on what was. Getting back to that time and place with a hope of surpassing the gains made in life so far. Painting memories of coulee runs just exasperates the problem of wanting that feeling of air through my lungs and clearing up the mess I have rolling around in my mind. Running straightens it all out. Running solves problems. Running works things out. Running builds confidence in being. Running changes the shape of the air around me and gives me a reason to move forward.