July 29th, 2017

July has been hotter than usual. An oppressive heat. Staying for many days in a row with no relief. Although going through the daily struggles of my mind wanting to give this up, I continue the challenge. Perhaps because it is a challenge and to conquer obstacles helps to keep my morale going. This requires discipline. I am happy to say I still have that. For myself and many others fall into the great divide, I have my artwork to pull me through. I have my discipline. Everyday I ask myself why? Everyday I answer myself, what else do I have. My discipline lifts me up. It frustrates me on many days but in the end it is what pulls me through. Those hard earned successes give me the strength to carry on.  Mastery may be the goal but as any serious artist will attest, the whole idea of mastery is a hard fought battle. Comparing oneself to others and you will never get there. Everyday I find a new artist that I may compare myself with and everyday I want to quit for I will never paint like him or her. I will never get there. But everyday I start again. Because by starting again, I gain the discipline of being myself. Maybe being myself is what I need to master.